Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005

Started off 2005 with green jealous eyes , following the cheerful eyes of the mist that went up. An envy heart have i earned for such a memory. Its hard , no one said it was gonna be easy. So many problems , so little time , yet so little motivation.

Christmas and the new year passed like it has'nt passed that all , I feel no difference.
I hope no one goes to the sentoesa beach party , many wolves are there.
I dunno what im feeling , just little bits of candy vibes I came across. Things are'nt really doing well for me.

I did'nt see the Angel tonight , i wonder where she went. Most likely somewhere with her friends or family. Perhaps I'll see her soon. I didnt see intel either, i wonder if we could talk. its so hard for me to talk to you. As for hER , i hope you didnt do anything stupid or crazy when u party the night away.

To the smiley pillow : Thank you for getting me by life and being such a good friend, I hope u and him would work out fine. I'm happy for you , but i cant say the same for myself.

how much more of this can i endure untill it breaks and overloads? how much pain and emotional abuse must i go through just to be alright with thou? Hello 2005 , I hope u got more things to offer.


TO the MAKER : I'm putting everything in ur hands. Please help me , no one else can.





-survived @ 1:26 AM
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Money.

How much you earn a day is how much u bothered to lift up that lazy ass of yours and do something. So u dont get to go out with ur beloved friends...spare me.

"HappyBigFamily".

How much can you endure the inner gossips inside of yourselves ? Outcasting the very one who claims to be one of such a group.


Guardians.

Lose your old fashion thinking. You do not know what i can do.


"Bond"

Buck Up Boy.


"Anon-'s"

Get this right cowards , stop hiding behind your pathetic computor screens.


Today was a mess. thats all i can say.




-survived @ 4:44 AM
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Ok. Its been awhile. A long while. First , i dont owe u all anything for not blogging. Its just for the holidays.

Classy Boy took the wining angel from the stage to the stands , there was nothing i could do but just stay behind those doors of mirrors. Reminding me what a selfish person I've have been to think that way. The only wish that was granted was the way her hair fell across her forehead , genie , u could do more than that. Years has passed but only a few months I felt I knew you, the more I try to draw close , the tighter the strangle. Stop falling over and over again. Stop falling.


hate the sin not the sinner. Smile and the world smiles with you .


happybigfamily -
: There are times in which i do not understand the way u bring urselves up. Its more than just a group of people. If the family is that happy. Why are there still backstabbing in the group? , Read , Rest , Reflect.


To Anon-s :
Dont waste your time here cos u aint gonna get anything good here.


-survived @ 8:11 AM
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Saturday, June 19, 2004
you have no right to judge people.
your pride blinds your lips
you cant find a way to talk things out
we told you plenty of times
you try and try again , u fail.
you wont stand up , u rather look at ur hollow body.
you think nothing of what aftermath is goin to happen
you only want to hear what u want to hear
you deny everything which is good for you
you got heartbroken , so what ?
you cling on to something you cant have.
you cling on like you watch too much love movies
you cling on like u listened to too many silly love songs
you you you you you you you you you you youyou you
you care more about your status than your friends
you aint playing no fame game
you need someone
you need love
you need a chance
you need God

-survived @ 8:56 AM
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Sunday, June 13, 2004
i dunno whats with people with caps. is it a new trend ? i see no point with ppl with caps. maybe to hide their horrible hairdo...i dunno. didnt bother to update cos i felt that it wasnt important. the things u write on ur blogs may be the words that would be used against u one day , becareful of wad u write. lets think abt Pride ? no one will say that he or she is proud, am i rite ? craps..u'll never know wad is good till its gone. Is it worth the bloodshed of yourself to expose ur inner most feelings and getting slayed by that very person him/herself. makes u wonder does it ? or perhaps were u too impulsive to get into one in the 1st place..how long can this last ? excuses like experience is just pouring honey into blood. blogs...ha, blogs. this is what i think like it or not. not in the mood for honey words today. Fame , Fortune and Greed...Man's downfall.
-survived @ 8:42 AM
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
Do what is right today for a better tomorrow they said. Look where i am now? Together, ordinary people can accomplish the extraordinary. Then whats the difference with being a extraordinary individual? You're like a picture on my bedroom desk. Hardly noticed , yet there. The puzzle is yet to be sloved , like an unfinished jig-saw puzzle missing a piece. Childish forms of topics made upon me , from whom do you belive ? There's a knot in my head which i cant untie on my own. Why wont you just snip the knot away like u always do with your sharp tongue. Is your name written in the book of life ? or is it misplaced in the story of love. Why cant u feel the Log that is in your eyes blocking the truth ? Let bygones be bygones u said? , then why are you clinging on to the past ? Whats my motive ? Whats your problem ?
-survived @ 5:48 AM
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Man was created for a purpose , I have failed my purpose.
If Death was'nt a Sin , This cheerful blade would kiss my heart.
An outcast i have become, being ignored by many and by many talk ill upon.
A simple "Tsk" is a expression when something is changed for the wrong reason or a sign of disapointment
I will catch u if u fall , but once i do that , ur name will be the last words that i'll call
I'm losing the battle of grace and pride , do life a favour and die.

-survived @ 1:24 AM
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Friday, January 02, 2004
Summer in your Life, Sunday u were fine..
Another chance
a different story
A chapter we cant hide
I am Sorry that i am
About to say good bye
I feel a thousand tiles has fallen but i'll take my flight
Please remember the times together
though it'll never be the same with the days we spent before
Never want to say this
Never want to leave you
I try to wish the worlds apart
but now i cant get back to you
Never want to feel this way
I pray that i , my sacrifice
But i can never be like the "one" before
-survived @ 7:13 PM
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Friday, November 14, 2003
My black back pack's stuffed with broken dreams
20 bucks should get me through the week
never said out a word of discontentment
thought it a thousands times but no one will even know
here in my shadows , im safe , im free
i've no where else to go but i cannot stay where i dont belong
2 months passed by and its getting cold
i know im not lost im juz alone
but i wont cry i wont give up i hate to go back now
waking up is knowing who u really are

-survived @ 9:01 AM
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003
coloured balls rolling into the endless pit
to a simple pose that u can sit
I wandered from a distance and ponder to think for a while
how come i couldnt even make you smile
I miss the shots even when it is near
To hold the thought that u are here
Desire to win was in your veins
yet u fail to see that i am in pain
Its just a simple game of pool
you still treated me like i am in school
I am human too , I too have feelings
Please dont treat me like a invisible being
To my soul , you are my purpose
how can i stand here with you and not be moved by it
would u tell me how could you do this to me
I want us to be alright so that we could talk in trust
The cue is still at its rest , being attacked by rust.



-survived @ 8:00 AM
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Monday, November 10, 2003
This side of brightness is gone.
each time u hung me up on the phone.
The outcome of a stupid line
tears cried that you'll be mine
and all those times you were wrong
you were right
Nothing stays the same
i grew up , fell in love with a girl who knew my name
But there are holes in the floors of heaven.


-survived @ 8:01 PM
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