Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005

Started off 2005 with green jealous eyes , following the cheerful eyes of the mist that went up. An envy heart have i earned for such a memory. Its hard , no one said it was gonna be easy. So many problems , so little time , yet so little motivation.

Christmas and the new year passed like it has'nt passed that all , I feel no difference.
I hope no one goes to the sentoesa beach party , many wolves are there.
I dunno what im feeling , just little bits of candy vibes I came across. Things are'nt really doing well for me.

I did'nt see the Angel tonight , i wonder where she went. Most likely somewhere with her friends or family. Perhaps I'll see her soon. I didnt see intel either, i wonder if we could talk. its so hard for me to talk to you. As for hER , i hope you didnt do anything stupid or crazy when u party the night away.

To the smiley pillow : Thank you for getting me by life and being such a good friend, I hope u and him would work out fine. I'm happy for you , but i cant say the same for myself.

how much more of this can i endure untill it breaks and overloads? how much pain and emotional abuse must i go through just to be alright with thou? Hello 2005 , I hope u got more things to offer.


TO the MAKER : I'm putting everything in ur hands. Please help me , no one else can.





-survived @ 1:26 AM
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